My Greatest love

February 21, 2018

It's been 2 years, 9months, and 14 days. Yes, It was like a rollercoaster ride. The relationship started coarsely and difficult. Both had different interests, goals and perspective in life but halfway there, we were able to meet and tried to learned each other's belief. At some point in my life, I never expected that this relationship would even last this long. I had conflicts with my parents, my sister, and everyone else. It feels like everyone is trying to get in my way. For 2 whole years, we kept it as a secret from my family. And i've never adored someone this much for keeping up with me that long. His patience and determination made me fall in love with him even more. 💓

I admit I'm not the typical sweet girl that is full of surprises. I'm not into fancy things either. But I'm inlove of the idea of love. Yes, falling in love must have been the greatest feeling in the world. But you know what's even more perfect? Falling in love with someone who loves you as much. We had our series of ups and downs. Almost gave up on each other but came to realized that giving up is not even an option. He taught me his perspective about life and how to dwell with my decisions. He made me the stronger version of myself. He became my strength and courage when I couldn't fight for my battles anymore. He was my source of inspiration to achieve my goals. I couldn't thank him in enough for pushing me so hard to be where I am right now.  And lastly, he is my greatest love. I've never been that much vocal towards my feelings because I find it hard for me to express my deeper and sentimental thoughts. But he brought color to my world that was once dull and destructive. He made me believe in love again. He knows how messed up and fragile I was before he met me. But he patiently picked up all those broken pieces and made me whole again. He was the only person I first ran to when things get rough. I've never been ashamed to let him see the ugly side of me because he accepted me for who I was and how embarrasing my pasts are. He was my perfectly imperfect man.

Yes, we are almost there on our 3rd anniversary. We are in a long distance relationship for 5 months now. It was pretty tough. Time wasn't our friend either. We had a hard time with the different time zone and keeping up with the busy schedule in work and etc. He almost gave up just before the year ended but he took back what he said and came back with me. It was heartbreaking. Just even thinking of going on with life without him makes me cringe. I thought that was the end of it all but I was so happy he came back. I may not have expressed how elated I was, but my heart couldn't contain the joy.

He is the person I imagined myself to be watching me walkdown the aisle in my beautiful white wedding gown. I remembered how he would say he wanted to sing while I walk down. He is the only person I wanna give my "I Do" in front of my God, my family and Father. He is the person I wanna wake up to when the morning shines and the person i wanna see before I close my eyes and sleep. He is the person I wanna give all my love because I believe he deserves it. He is the person behind my joyful smile and no one else can make me smile the way I do with him. He is the person I wanna love last and grow old with. Oh God, I have so much plans for this person.


But I guess, the time has come to an end. It had been the best and beautiful 3 years of my life. You took me to places I've never been. You brought so much joy in my life. All my dreams and plans for us, I hope it will still be you I'm with. There's nothing compared to the love we had. Cheesy as may sound, but you made me believe that I can love and be loved in return. It took me ample of strength and courage to write this. I never wished our story to end. I want you to fight for us like I do. We promised not to leave each other, right? Don't let this beautiful story of us come to an end.


I love you always and forever, my love.

I miss you. I miss us.

It's just you and me. No one else.

Please don't give up on me. Please don't give up on us.





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